My Choice- Doug Savarie

Recently I have been going through somewhat of a “spiritual slump,” feeling kind of depressed and down on myself, and have been trying to turn that around through prayer. Today I was reading something by Oswald Chambers in which he wrote, “Anything that has even a hint of dejection spiritually is always wrong. If I am depressed or burdened, I am to blame, not God or anyone else. Dejection stems from one of two sources—I have either satisfied a lust or I have not had it satisfied.” Chambers’ use of the word lust does not necessarily mean that of a sexual nature, but rather it means something that one desires immediately over all else. Given my current condition, this statement has charged me to discover exactly what lust I have satisfied or not satisfied. Initially I could not think of any one thing in particular, but then I realized that the reason I was having difficulty is because of the word lust and the connotations that go along with it. Starting to think outside of the box, I believe that the issue is that what I have been praying for is happiness, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing; however, happiness is my focus, my desire, my lust. My focus and my desire should be completely focused on my relationship with Jesus, not my personal emotions.